Sunday Secret

alonemoonA beloved person I know had to put her sweet 13 year-old dog to sleep today and I’m thinking of her and of him and the moon.  I would never tell anyone this but I like to think that earth’s porch light has enough space for everyone’s grief. Everyone’s I’ll Never Survive This. Everyone’s heartbreak.

The dog that died today was a special dog in The Cupcake household. He was the dog who lived across the way and who, based on his magical calm powers, taught Cooper how to (try) to be a gentleman. You see, Davis was the first big dog who, when Cooper was around him, didn’t send Cooper into a barking ass attack. It was as if Cooper recognized that Davis was his Sensei, his guide, his friend. In fact, on walks with Cooper, Mister Cupcake and I often pulled Cooper aside after a cranky face bark odyssey at another big dog, to whisper “Cooper: that’s your friend. He’s just like Davis.” And this always calmed Cooper down. Davis was Cooper’s best friend. Even though he didn’t see him every day and even though he often forgot Davis’s lessons, he still reacted to his name—the name of his first true friend.

I can only imagine the sadness MY friend is experiencing this evening. This evening, the first evening of a new month in the midst of a very warm heat wave we’ve been having. I only know that it is a wonder, like the all alone moon, how our lives intertwine with each other and how, every creature leaves its mark on unlimited others, longing to feel comforted and calmed, longing to feel loved.

Yours In Intricate Connection,
Petunia Pretzel

18 Comments on "Sunday Secret"

  1. Hilary says:

    It’s heartbreaking to lose a friend. Heartbreaking.

  2. The loss of a pet, however it happens, is devastating, I think. Please extend our sympathies to Davis’ owner. And give Cooper some extra love tonight.

  3. The Zadge says:

    What a sweet tribute to Davis… and now I’m sort of weeping thinking about the day my own sweet 13-year old Sensei became an angel.

    • Cupcake Murphy says:

      I thought of you and your boy Jackson when I was writing this. And my sweet Sandy. And Linda’s handsome Lance. And my miraculous Bob the Beagle. They’re all in heaven playing doggie poker.

  4. PJ says:

    I have no doubt that dogs do have friends. And yes, it is hard to lose unconditional love. We mourn our Humphrey and it has been 16 months.

    I am so sorry.

  5. claudia w says:

    I am so sorry for the lose of Davis. It brings me back to when I lost my own furbaby to cancer three years ago. It never gets easier!

  6. Sweet Davis. Hugs to his family, and to Cooper.

  7. Gayle says:

    This is an on-beyond-zebra tribute to a dear, dear friend. You have the most marvelous way with words. What a joy to read what you write and get a glimmer into your fantastic gift. Thank you for being a gift for us all. We recently lost a kitty after 21 years. She was a peach. I wrote a long tribute to her on her last day. I can only read it from time to time.

    • Cupcake Murphy Cupcake Murphy says:

      Thank you for your nice words, Gayle. 21 years is a long life for a kitty! You must have loved him/her a lot.

  8. midlyfemama says:

    My own dear Gus is getting on in Schnauzer years. AND he has a history of bladder stones. I feel like I am on borrowed time with him, so I do try to make the most of all the cuddles and love and ear rubs and belly tickles I can. You just don’t know when last call is going to be. Our most heartfelt condolences to the family of Davis, from us here at Casa de Schnauzer.

  9. Duffylou says:

    Best friends are hard to come by. Here’s wishing nothing but happy thoughts to Davis on his travels and comfort to your friend.