Sunday Secret

There are times when I suffer from such an intense case of The Sunday Weirds that I wonder if I’d be better off riding it out, alone, in a small warm closet or, when it is particularly acute, perhaps in a large fully equipped hospital.

You might think I’m exaggerating but I swear to Hoda Kotb I get so blue and unsettled it feels like I have butterflies making their way through a tunnel of cement in my veins. Like my eyelids are made of grief. Like my heart beats in Morse Code to form the words U-N-S-E-T-T-L-E-D- L-O-N-G-I-N-G…in that particularly Sunday Weird way. That melancholy restless way that sweeps over me and wraps its arms around me to remind me that I am the one who is supremely 100% absolutely for sure NOT in charge of any of it so I better keep practicing at keeping my heart open and letting go and moving forward instead of strengthening my claustrophobic storyline and resisting the ride.

It’s Okay If I Sleep In My Seatbelt, Right?
Veronica the Vaguely Neurotic Samurai

11 Comments on "Sunday Secret"

  1. AMEN. Thank you for giving the perfect name–“The Sunday Weirds”–to that empty, vulnerable, out-of-control feeling that somehow sneaks in the door on the second day of the weekend.

    And I need to know: who is Hoda Kotb?

    • Cupcake Murphy Cupcake Murphy says:

      I’m not sure if I should tell you who Hoda is if you don’t know because if you don’t know then you have a better chance at happiness. BUT you asked so I will tell you. She hosts the 10 o’clock ass face hour of the Today Show with Kathie Lee Gifford. Her hair looks like a helmet. She likes to cheer on middle aged women who are getting makeovers as if she is cheering on wounded soldiers returning from the war. Okay now you know. Good luck in life.

  2. The Zadge says:

    And she drinks on live TV in the morning and once dared to show her face to the entire Today world with not a stitch of makeup. And I think she is also a breast cancer survivor. And I bet she is just like us and also gets the Sunday Weirds.

  3. LT says:


  4. What? You slept? I stayed up and went back to sleep and then Cindy Crawford told me NO WAY was she buying the margaritas for the entire group. Hmph. No wonder I was in a cold sweat this morning.

  5. shelbo says:

    Mayso – You so succintly put into words every single pingle feeling I have, except it’s on a daily basis – not just Sundees. You are the voice of my icky feelings. xxoo m