Sunday Secret

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAMaybe I’ve mentioned this before but I’m kind of terrified of everything. Not perpetually or even constantly, but, for whatever reason, I am the thinnest skinned tomato I’ve ever met. And boy has this caused me trouble. Not because I don’t appreciate the grandeur of all that exists around me, because I do, but because I frequently stew in the future and all that might happen there. I’ve gotten so used to this, it is simply a part of me. The world and people around me haven’t come so far. Regardless, I go and I do and see and I experience and I gasp and I weep with joy and I, when I’m not quite up to snuff, say to myself  “the sheer of that cliff is so steep that I’d like to go have a soda” and regardless of what others say, gosh darn dammit, that’s what I do.

I’ve tried everything to wish my quirks and fears away and I’ve come to the place where I have, for the most part, settled down with them as if they are thorny little gremlins that come to goose me every now and again and because there is nothing that I can say or do to get rid of the last of them forever I’ve finally decided that they’re kind of cute.

You’re Not Weird, You’re You,
Big Bad Mama Go-On-Witcher-Wacky-Ol’-Self

9 Comments on "Sunday Secret"

  1. The gremlins may not be so cute, but they do settle down after a decade or so.

  2. claudia w says:

    Maybe we could talk your gremlins and my gremlins to go on vacation together?

  3. Cupcake I have those gremlins. I have had them since my 30’s. I fight them most every day. I am sorry you have them. I think I may try your approach and think of them as being cute. I would still like to kick their butts though!

  4. Thin-skinned tomatoes and thorny little gremlins might well make peace in a place like Sedona. Or at least go have a soda together.

    My own gremlins saw the spines on the Prickly Pear Cactus there and got a little less pokey.

    Is that Fay Canyon?

  5. PJ says:

    Once a being grasps what a soft pulpy little body covered with tissue paper skin, held up with a not terribly sturdy endoskeleton it has, it tends to get fairly concerned about protection.

    It does make some of us terribly alert.

  6. midlyfemama says:

    Sometimes the only way to get the gremlins to ease up is to accept them. Like when I am walking the dogs, and one is just pulling and pulling and pulling and just won’t go where I think we should be going, and I finally think “WHAT THE HELL, let’s just follow the dog” and we end up having a much more pleasant experience while he poops in the exactly right smelling spot that he was so anxious to find, and I am no longer working so hard to drag a dog whose only goal is to find the exactly right smelling spot on which to do his morning business. Sometimes gremlins just need to be sat next to, accepted for what they are, given the space to run in circles and work out their issues. Then they are not so anxious and yanky and they settle down.